friend after love..it's possible.. :)

malam nie tiba2 aku rasa macam nak tulis entry nie...sbb??aku rasa cam nak tulis something....n maybe dah byk yang aku bekukan dlm hati, simpan dalam fikiran...xterluah dgn kata-kata..mungkin...

hmm...masih dalam mood cuti...and aku xstart stdy n bt keje lagi pown...even aku twu yang byk keje yg perlu dsttlekan before aku balik UMT nie...well..cuti mid-term kan???xsalah aku nk relax sekejap...bagi ruang utk diri nie brehat...and maybe rest my mind... :)   <----(rase cool giler dgn icon tue...haha...cikai..)

ade plak test biotech hari selasa nie kan..preparation is still in progress..haha...nmpak prmainan tu?? :D
actually...xbyk yang nk ditulis...just a small matter..sebenarnya dlm cuti nie, aku byk fkirkan balik ape yang aku bt..n mcm mna hdup aku sem 3 nie...yes, i got the point...and aku rasa cam aku ter'miss' something...mybe sbb masalah sblom nie...yg bpunca dari aku sendiri...well...i'm jus a girl...xlari pd masalah...and kdang2 aku pown tersilap nk handle masalah aku sendiri...hmmm...bla dah terhantuk, bru tersedar...yes, u got a big problem..time tu baru la nk mngungkit...but, no...aku xmenyesal.. :-)

entry ini ditulis utk memuatkn slot surat cnta aku yang terakhir...untuk DIA..bak kte najwa latif ngan sleeq..haha...so, sesape yang rasa cam xnak bace tu...relax2...aku just tulis...up to u how to judge it..:)
begini permainannya...

  "just for u..
 sy twu awk xbace entry nie...sbb tu sy berani tulis...sory ye awk..:)
surat nie sbnarnye ditulis utk sye ckp bnda yg sy xtrcakap kt awk...so...this is it..
sblom nie sy slalu tnye diri sndri...knpa kita kne bpisah...or mybe kita dtakdirkan brjmpe tapi bpisah         akhirnya...but..after thinking about it...sy realized yg keadaan tu xla seteruk yang sy sgka...sbb..sy bertuah sbb knal org mcm awk...even kita dah clash...awk xpnah tggalkan sy..cuma bezanya dgn status..skrang pown awk xpnah tggalkan sy sbg seorang kwn..smpai saat ni..and i appreciate it...really..:)

To be honest, u're the best person i've ever met..the best lover..and now, such a best friend...and u r the first person that taught me a meaning of love...and now i knew it..after i knew u...
i'm so sorry if i mess up ur life..sy minx maaf..sbb mybe awk hadapi byk msalah sbb sy...and thanks a lot...sbb pnah hadir dalam hidup sy...
and sy xpernah marah awk...xde sikit pown benci..sbb smpai saat ini...awk yg terbaik...
and kalau spe2 tnya pown...smpai skrang...yes, jwpan masih sama...no one can replace u..
and kita akn tetap kwn...friend after love...possible...let's prove it.. ;)

thanks sbb tman sy bla sye takot...thanks sbb ade bla sye rsa khilangan...and thanks utk setiap saat awk bt sy bahagia dulu...and i'm still happy until now..and skrang, yg tggal cuma smua knangan yg mmg sy xnak buang selagi sy berhak utk simpan knangan tu dlm hati nie...jgn rsau...cinta kita akn trus ada dlm lipatan sejarah hidup sy...yg satu saat nnti sy akn trsnyum bila sy sedar yang awk sbnarnye bwa smething dlm hdup sy..thanks dear...
go and grab a good things in ur life...and probably a better person...u deserved better..

Kita akn tetap kwn....smpai bila-bila... :)

u know what??
the day i met u..my eyes can see that i'm not a good match for u...but, unfortunately...my heart doesn't have any eyes to see it...and it keep beating for u... :)


I tried to talk to you, but I don't know what to say.. I am afraid you don't want me to say anything.. So I don't.. But inside of me there are words waiting to come out. And tell you how I feel... like how I miss you.. And how I love you despite my broken heart.. And how I need you in my life. And especially how much I want you.. But those words may forever stayin my heart... locked inside.. Sometimes I wonder if there are words locked inside youtoo... But I'll never know ..."

ok...that's it..nanti bila ada masa, aku tulis lagi... :)

P/S: aku masih mencari diri aku yang dulu... wish me luck for the coming test... :)
and pd dia yg naik bus blik mlm nie...have a safe journey friend..:)