will it stay the same?? :)

It’s about what I used to be today…
The environment seems the same. But it’s actually not…
I try to flashback, right before I know him…my world are actually full of things...
Full of activities. But it seems to be more simple than today..as I don’t have a big things to care about..

After I know him…I’ve been through a lot of hard things..and I learned everything from him… I learned how to miss, how to be a good lover, I started to think about the future..which is definitely full of him.. :) 
I don’t really know what it’s all about..but I enjoyed every second that we've been through…
Every moment seems totally perfect… up until we faced some kind of a big problem..
I know we could make it..but we actually couldn't…how sad things to be… we've broke up…
For a quite sometimes…probably I learned something in this short period of time…
A lot of pain I've been through…
It just for a few month…and now…we just agreed to be okay..
We agreed to have a week where we could start everything over again…but it just for a week… :)
And I’m still in that kind of week..where we still share the smiles, the joy, and all the things together..
Everything goes well..and I’m happy that I could be with him again…
But…instead of that happiness… I know that there’s a day that I should be ready to let him go again…
I know that one day..things won’t come the way that I want…and I just can’t say anything…
Times allow me to just enjoy the beautiful scenery of mine…and I accept it to be my fate…
It’s hard to think about…but, it’s happened slowly like an aging process of an old woman…the different is just this old woman know when her times will come.. :)
I just haven’t been able to think what will happened right after he left me again...so far away from me…
Will I cry again?? Or… do I have to cry for that farewell?? Guess I’m having a lot of times for that preparation… but still… it doesn't make any senses…

I just wonder…
What if one day I won’t be able to see his face anymore?? Hearing those laughed?? Listen to the riddles that he speaks out for me?? 
Would everything going fine?? Will my world became such an empty world?? Without any seasons that I used to cherish about…?:)
what should i do?? or..
how do i do?? i don't even know...
Well… it’s not that he’s happened to be my scenery… but, ever since I saw him…
He’s always becoming my scenery…till now... :)
And what if one day… That scenery gone?? Will I be able to change my scenery to something without his name..??
I just don’t know how things would be…

P/S: even it is just a simple scenery..i've decided to keep it...as it happened to be such a wonderful scenery i used to see everyday.. :)

almost the end :)

assalamualaikum...

alhamdulillah..pg nie aku still diberi kesempatan utk celik mata, tngok dunia Allah yg indah nie..

bersyukur sangat2... :)

and pasal entry kali nie...almost the end...

actually, xde pape pown..just aku nk bgtaw aku punya last paper!! hehe

happy tu ada la jgak sebab dah boleh balik kedah lepas habis exam tu..tp, nervous tu ada jugak..ye la kan...dekat2 nak balik nie...nak study pown rasa cam xserajin sebelum nie...ye la..mood pown da kurang..separuh hati dah ada kt rumah la katakan... :)

sebab tu la nervous utk last paper nie mcm lain dari paper2 sebelum nie... 

and mesti smua spe2 yg baca entry nie fikir "eh dye nie, dah last paper, bukan nak study..g update blog plak.."  =.=" haha..rileks...aku bt keja sambil2 je nie... :D

haha..maafkan saye.. :D

yang penting...esok aku nk balik...

sumpah aku rindu orang2 kat rumah...along, angah. thariq, nisak, mak, ayah...tapi kali nie aku xleh la jumpa thariq..dah pergi plkn katenye..haha..well..xde la org nk men game ngan aku, nk tngok bola dgn aku kn..xpe je..ade lagi org2 len.. nnti cuti len kali aku leh men dgn dia lagi..

hopefully, dia dpat belajar byk bnda tme dia kat sana...

sayang adik aku !! :)

so, pic dlm entry kali nie utk adik aku tuhhh..haha..xde motif!! :D

hah nie dya... :D

torres.. :)

p/s: insyaAllah entry baru akan diupdate selepas aku sampai umah..haha :D

      wish me luck 4 the last incoming paper..! :)

kalau itu perlu :)

Assalamualaikum..

alhamdulillah...ptg nie aku still ade peluang utk update entry blog aku nie...hmm..rasa macam dah lama x update..tapi, aku rasa macam semalam aku baru update..haha! propa!

oke, xpe...

sebenarnya aku tngah download and dgr lagu backstreet boys skrang nie...so, xde keja, aku pown terfikir nak tulis entry nie... :)

sebut pasal backstreet boys ataupown dya pnya nama shortform BSB, aku mmg minat group nie pown..ntah knpa...dari dulu g..rasa nk mnjerit je bila dgr lagu diorang..haha.. :D

aku skrang dalam mggu exam..bru lepas jawab paper ethnobotany tadi...bleh dikatakan tough jgak la dia punya soalan. Tapi , dah habes dah pown...

So,ptg nie aku nk release stress sket..mlm nie baru smbung stdy untuk incoming paper.

Citer pasal hidup aku sekarang, xde apa2 perubahan pown. Cuma, slightly different dari dulu...and aku suka kawan2 aku sekarang..bukan maksud aku,aku xsuka kawan2 aku yg dulu..NO, No,NO..aku suka kwn2 aku oke! :D but, they taught me a lot...about life..and waktu aku dah rasa xkuat lagi...diorang yg grab aku..bwak aku,tnjuk balik jalan utk aku...

wahhh...bahasa xboley blah...xpe...hehe...

sbenarnyakan...aku ckp aku ok...yes, aku ok..but..ada sesetengah perkara yg macam xok..sbnarnya kan aku pown xtau aku bt ape n mcm mna...tp, ada bnda yg aku xckp btul2..sbb aku rasa mungkin xperlu...biar la hanya aku yang tau...sbb mybe aku dah terlalu resistance utk rasa tu...n sbnarnya ada..cuma aku nk ignorekan sj rasa tu...bukan sengaja nk sakitkan dia...tapi, aku dah penat..aku xnak la bt dia macam dulu..n aku pown xnak aku jadi pelik macam dulu..

n aku rasa aku xde pape yg mnyebabkan aku perlu dgn dia...n, forgive me for the answer i give you..i didn't mean to hurt you..but i have to..n i have the reasons by doing that...biarkan saja... :)

u know what..sometimes..i hear the voice calling ur name inside of me..n i know that i miss u..but, i just ignore that feeling.. i dont know why..n sometimes, i called ur name in my dreams without i even realized..when i awake i just found a little drop of tears inside my eyes..and i know it's hurt...but i just can't do anything with it..sometimes i feel like i don't know u..i just confuse with myself now..instead of ur love there are so many things that make me cant say it..n mybe it's gone..i'm so sorry dear..really sory for saying that to you.. :)

p/s: it's not the same..there's no one like u..that's the problem.. :'(

 nak sambung dengar lagu budak2 kat bwah nie..chill.. :)

"The very talkative one" :D

hari nie nak citer pasal pengalaman.
bukan apa pown..aku nie mmg suka bercakap..tp, tulis aku xtaw la plak...hehe

Dalam hidup nie..memang dah jadi lumrah bila kita berdepan masalah..mesti stress kan...
but..it just the matter how we handle it...how we face it..
bukan mudah...selalunya mesti kita akan start blame something kan..either bnda, orang or even keadaan tu sndri..
well, tu la silapnya...if something happened, perkara prtama yg kita kena buat ialah try fikirkan semula apa yang kita dah buat...
i mean instead of salahkan orang, baik kita fikir maybe kita pown ada tersilap jugak..tak salah fikir camtu..
lagi elok ade la...sebab dgn fikir camni, kita boleh muhasabah diri..so, belajarlah dari pengalaman...learn from mistakes k!

ok, entry kali nie aku sj nk tulis pasal bnda kat atas tu..haha...
ada sorang manusia ni..hmm..mmg suka bercakap...
hehe..spa tu???hahaha...nmpak x permainan tu?? :D
dia tu bla start ckap..smua org kat sekeliling kena diam...dia cakap xbhenti2 smpai berjam2...smpai housemate2 smua ada gelaran kt dia... "the very talkative one, eat a lot, and trouble-maker" haha..mmg agak kejam diperlakukan sebegitu..haha..tp, it's ok..as long as itu yg bleh bt dia happy..she'll do it..
and org tu aku la..oke!dgn muka yang sgt giggle! :D hahahahaha
ok la..pndek je entry kali nie..bye2..esok aku exam ethnobotanyy..wish me luck k.. :)

oppss!!mungkin xsampai mcm nie.. :D

p/s: part trouble-maker tu..errrr..??? =.='  xkot..haha