It’s about what I used to be today…
The environment seems the same. But it’s actually not…
I try to flashback, right before I know him…my world are actually full of things...
Full of activities. But it seems to be more simple than today..as I don’t have a big things to care about..
After I know him…I’ve been through a lot of hard things..and I learned everything from him… I learned how to miss, how to be a good lover, I started to think about the future..which is definitely full of him.. :)
I don’t really know what it’s all about..but I enjoyed every second that we've been through…
Every moment seems totally perfect… up until we faced some kind of a big problem..
I know we could make it..but we actually couldn't…how sad things to be… we've broke up…
For a quite sometimes…probably I learned something in this short period of time…
A lot of pain I've been through…
It just for a few month…and now…we just agreed to be okay..
We agreed to have a week where we could start everything over again…but it just for a week… :)
And I’m still in that kind of week..where we still share the smiles, the joy, and all the things together..
Everything goes well..and I’m happy that I could be with him again…
But…instead of that happiness… I know that there’s a day that I should be ready to let him go again…
I know that one day..things won’t come the way that I want…and I just can’t say anything…
Times allow me to just enjoy the beautiful scenery of mine…and I accept it to be my fate…
It’s hard to think about…but, it’s happened slowly like an aging process of an old woman…the different is just this old woman know when her times will come.. :)
I just haven’t been able to think what will happened right after he left me again...so far away from me…
Will I cry again?? Or… do I have to cry for that farewell?? Guess I’m having a lot of times for that preparation… but still… it doesn't make any senses…
I just wonder…
What if one day I won’t be able to see his face anymore?? Hearing those laughed?? Listen to the riddles that he speaks out for me??
Would everything going fine?? Will my world became such an empty world?? Without any seasons that I used to cherish about…?:)
what should i do?? or..
how do i do?? i don't even know...
Well… it’s not that he’s happened to be my scenery… but, ever since I saw him…
He’s always becoming my scenery…till now... :)
And what if one day… That scenery gone?? Will I be able to change my scenery to something without his name..??
I just don’t know how things would be…
P/S: even it is just a simple scenery..i've decided to keep it...as it happened to be such a wonderful scenery i used to see everyday.. :)
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